She should've been at work today

Today's emotions were quite a bit different for me.

I'd put off stopping by her job to pick up her things. As I was driving over this morning, I kept thinking had it not been for the damned chemo treatment, she would have at least been able to enjoy going to work and taking part in every one's day as usual. The thread is that thin and I'm really having the most trouble yet accepting that.

I visited her oncologist to request her records. More remorse on his part and I feel its genuine and try not to focus my emotions on him personally. I'd wanted to pick up her records and he said he had no trouble with that but the records Nazis had a different thought. No HIPAA authorization, no records. So, back to square one or lawyer on that next week.

Here's Cheryl's Obituary as placed in her hometown newspaper by her Step Mother, Donna: Taunton Daily Gazette

Another Chapter Closed

Sean and I finally were able to bring Cheryl home tonight. I'm not entirely sure how either he or I feel right now.

Sean mentioned last night it was like Ma was visiting Grandma for a time and it still feels like she'd be coming home. I've felt like it was another of my long temporary duty assignments and it'd be ending as well. Guess those have me more prepared than his experience has for him.

We went to a movie early in the afternoon and stopped for dinner on the way home tonight. Figured as we're about to get back to work and school, we best not take a moment for granted and enjoy something simple today.

Not sure where I'm going to be taking this blog over the next few weeks or if I'll even keep posting since the original plan for it has ended. I am planning to start finding a way to someday change the system to prevent another family from having to witness such a tragedy.

We're all home together tonight. Love those in your home as never before and appreciate those moments.

Rick